have been contemplating for a long while on whether to update this blog space of mine. but i've got really loads of thoughts running through my mind this CNY, thus I've finally settled down to pen them down - in a random sequence. 
CNY 2012 is the annual affair where we have 2 rounds of reunion dinner - 1 at home with the immediate family and the other at Grandma's where most of the 8 children of hers will gather.


Day 1 - Usual visitings to the paternal family. We used to visit 5 of the elder uncles' place when we were younger. Daddy is the youngest of the 13 children, so we had to visit most of the uncles' places as a form of respect. Unfortunately as the years past, we settled for only 2 of the uncles' place in the recent years. With 2 of my elder uncles passed away & 1 uncle moving to Malaysia, we have since lost contact with their families. Quite sad because we are not close to the paternal family to begin with and it was always during the CNY that we catch up with one another. With the reduce in number of houses we visit during CNY would mean totally not meeting the relatives at all. 
But still, each year I'll always look forward to visiting 3rd uncle's place because that's where we enjoy Granny's descended Popiah, Ngoh Hiang and Curry Chicken. Since Granny's days, the popiah we ate are all hand-made - right from adding the sweet sauce, chilli, filling the vegetables and finally wrapping it. It has been the same tradition since 22 years ago.
Last stop of the day would be at maternal Grandma's place for dinner then hopping over to b's Grandma's place for some gambling. haha..


Day 2 - First stop would always be at my maternal Granduncle's place in Tai seng area. It has also been a yearly tradition where my maternal family will gather for lunch. All 40 will gather at the terrace for buffet and lou hei session. Then, only in the past year, I started the phototaking sessions after lunch. It has always been in my to-do list for the maternal family because it is such a big group and having to coordinate everyone's time to take a studio photo will be rather difficult. So this year too, we had our family portrait taken at the front yard of Granduncle's place. But each year, there are bound to be members missing in the portrait.


After that would be visiting my Great-grandma's niche at All Saints. I've never told anyone this before (because I think i'm just too emotional and vulnerable at times) - I never fail to fight against my tears whenever we visit Ah Chor's niche for the past 10 years. I don't know why, but whenever I'm there, tears just formed in my eyes and I have this sudden urge to cry. I was only 12 when she passed away and the memories I had of her was her in a wheelchair at the old folks' home. But I knew all of us cried bitterly during the last farewell at her funeral. 


Then it'll be visiting to my Grandaunt's place at Ang Mo Kio and subsequently, the rest of my uncle's and aunts' houses. Because we are such a huge family travelling together and visiting the relatives, our 'practice' would be to reach the destinations first and 'chop' the seats available at the houses. Those who came later will have to stand around the house till 1 of us initiate the 'HUAT AR' - signaling to move on to the next destination. We might not see each other often now since most of the cousins have grown up. But whenever we meet, there's still this chemistry among us that keeps us so closely knitted. And because of this, I'm thankful for the full attendance turn out when I organised Grandpa's 80th birthday in December 2011.

week after week passed by very fast this month. 9-6pm at works are packed with meetings after meetings and more work. Today is supposed to be one of the days that I've been looking forward to - because I'm bringing Daddy to watch the Hossan Leong Show at the Drama Centre in the evening.
Daddy listens to his radio shows every morning while driving and has hinted that he would want to catch the show. and I've never brought daddy out for a show/movie before, so i thought it'll be a good chance to display my filial piety. =)

But, sometimes, life's really a joke.
Just 1 hour before knocking off, the mood-dampening thing happened.

The rebate calculation that I did manually was all wrong. It might lead to serious consequences, and 我已经做了最坏的打算. I really don't know what to expect from my boss tomorrow, when he returns from Thailand.

While typing the email to him, explaining to him what happened, I really felt like I could kiss goodbye to my promotion. (so much for exclaiming out loud in my previous post - hao liao la.)

也好吧,如果工作真的没了,只好回去当个学生. 再也不用为事业和学业烦了.

never felt so emo in my life before lor.
"whether you're feeling sad or happy, time will still past and life goes on"
i've been trying hard to console myself with the above phrase, hoping I can have at least a good night's rest but then, sometimes the mind rules the heart too much.

there were times I have doubts about myself if i was really ready to take up the additional responsibilities as a team leader. but at times, i felt so driven and motivated to bring the entire company to the next level.

alright, probably gonna cry myself to sleep tonight.
Somehow, vulnerability rules this month. ahhh..

but still, wanna thank Hossan Leong for making me laugh so hard during the 2 hours and forgetting all the unhappiness that happened before the show.

Labels: 我已经尽了全力

Me being me, i've started to look out for next year's Chinese New Year clothes.
Super kiasu as usual - it's actually called PLANNING btw. haha! but come to think of it, it's only 3 months down and I don't wanna be caught in the situation where I have to rush through & get something that is mehmeh which I do not really like.

And so, items at the spree ordered! just hope none goes out of stock so I can receive my pretty pieces for CNY!

Oh, btw I've also gotten my bag - picked a clutch that I super ♥ at the Charles & Keith Sales last weekend!
Was grumbling about the guys wasting time for wanting to head to the Pedro sales. In the end, it was us - the girls that came out with 3 paperbags filled. super pai seh, had to hide my face behind my huge paperbag when we left the place to meet up with the guys downstairs. hahaha!

I don't know if I'm making up reasons for the amount of $ I'm spending (close to $400 for 1 weekend!) or am I really happy to share the news - I've officially promoted!

I realised I've got nothing to blog about suddenly. haha! so i'm gonna end the post here. Abruptly.

bye!

Labels: counting down to CNY in 3 mths

It's been a month since I've turned 21 and yup, i've been contemplating to blog because of laziness! and bcos i'm back to living in my routine work life. spell B-O-R-I-N-G! but then, that's where the ka-ching comes! hehehe.

So before the laziness overwhelms my decision to pen my 21st party down, here it goes!
pictures are kept to minimum because loads of them to upload! they're all in my fb album anyway.

the birthday party that i began planning long ago, about 1 year before my actual birthday!
so much planning to do...

I booked the venue in February, damn kiasu! hahaha. but what's a party without a good venue right.. and given the no. of ppl i was inviting, i need to ensure the space is enough.
with the help of Casper & Angeline, I booked the NSRCC Bungalow at the country club's member price!
and the planning from the food (BBQ + Catering), to the main item - cake, it took me about 2 months. And because there was the BKK trip just a week before the party, i had to ensure all things are settled before i jet away for my shopping trip.

No doubt, July was my most expensive month of the year!

beloved family! ♥

the brother who never fail to give me his advise whenever i ask:
"kor, do i look weird like this?"
"kor, is this nice?"
"kor, does this match?"

the mommy who went through so much to bring me up; to wake me up every morning; to take care of the household chores so I could concentrate on my studies & work.

the daddy who never rejects me whenever I asked for a shoulder massage; to fetch me to work if he is around the area; to brew herbal tea for the family frequently.

the girls at the party!

the boys!

the cuzzies!

Labels: my pastel 21st

i'm officially 21!

today is the day i've been planning for the past few months.
and i seriously hate planning now. somehow i'm damn particular on everything to be perfect and it's causing me even more stress than ever.

i just hope the celebration later turns out good and not screw up! =)

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ps: i do miss the time when i told you on msn that i was hungry and you left a bowl of 7-11 whipped potato at my door.

Labels: i'm 21

I've been having this insecurity with myself lately.
it was a random thought, but the insecurity got worser now.

it was on a random day (too random till i can't rmb when) that i was thinking of these thoughts:

"how come she has become so pretty and yet i'm still looking similar to how i was 10 years ago.."
"Her hair now is super shiny and silky! her hair used to be even more curly and dry than mine!"
"she got the looks, the skin and the figure! wah, why her change so drastic and turned out so good?"

i mentioned this insecured feeling to b, he told me:
"maybe she spent alot of money to maintain to how she looks like now, just be healthy. That's most important."

And yes, he seldom say such consoling words la. haha! so when he mentioned that, it hit me hard. What was i thinking? I should be contented with how i am now. Healthy with no illness. =)

Till ONE FINE DAY, someone started a facebook group for my primary school batch. i saw how much the girls & boys of my nerdy past became. it's as though the ugly duckling story came to life. Yes, b's words come knocking into my mind. But it's still a fact being presented to my face - how come all of them seemed to change and look so so much better!

Okay, I think I know why.
It's because I'm resistant to changes. (i think!)
At some point of time, i told myself i'll switch to lenses. the specs are making me look too serious and not-chio. LOL.

but when i finally bought the lenses, (super expensive lor! with astigmatism & daily disposable somemore!) i get lazy and not put them on. well, 1 problem is also because the Bausch & Lomb lenses that i got are uncomfortable! still safest to switch back to Acuvue.

okay la, i did change a little i guess. at least i did braces! been ugly & endured the pain for 1 year plus already, but as what my dentist said:

"Pain is temporary, straight teeth are forever!"

Speaking of which, I SHOULD be getting my braces out TOMORROW!
*hopefully!* it is straight now, but not perfectly straight. but i really want to take them out before my 21st birthday. so yup, will see what my dentist says tmr.

i told myself i should have this blog post up. i don't know why.
perhaps to laugh at myself 5 years down the road for being so silly in the past.

Labels: insecurity with myself in 2011

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